Angry Asian ExGF vol.3 "What do I do with HIS stuff?!?!"

Okay first and formost I would just like to apologize for being so MIA hahaha it's because I literally had nothing to say. I mean...I do..but it would take up hella time to write about it and I wanna make a point when I write blog post, I hate venting with no purpose if that makes sense lol so I figured I would start fresh/new with this topic

I stumbled upon it when I was on FB and my friend Kimberly posted a status about what to do with her exbf's items that she had collected while being with him and it inspired me to write about this topic because I was in her boat and I promise to not be so angry but it will have extreme truth and will either help you or just make you even more depress depending on your current situation hahaha JK =D hope it makes you laugh at least =]

Before I read her post, a couple of months back after my recent break up with ahem you know who, I was doing some major cleaning because I just felt like throwing out things because I was hoarding hella shit that need not to be in my room. I have this crazy big box that I put all my exbf's things and I mean everything from the very first bf in 7th grade(YES HE COUNTS) who attempted to make a card for me but when it was really his cousin who made it for him to give it to me and I ended up dating the cousin for like 8 plus years on and off. hahaha sorry for the confusing relationship story lol but as I was saying...I literally had cards, notes (yes, they were hand written and given to me, not txt or email), jewelry, candies, pictures, and little sentimental items that belonged to them. I had accumlated all those things from my very first exbf to my most recent exbf and went thru them one by one and wound up throwing like 85% of my exbfs things that I wasn't going to wear (old rusty jewlery and clothes), eat (candies, hella yucckky), pictures (GOD DAMMNNN, TALK ABOUT THROW BACKS HAHAHA), and notes (really poor handwritten ones but extrememly sweet and honest). I was able to throw those things out because I had no feelings or emotions towards them. I knew that I would never cross path with them and would not shed a tear if they were to be gone forever and I mean FOREVER.

BUTTTTT the remaining 15% I kept were from exbf's that really meant a lot to me, weither we broke up on bad or good terms. Those memories I just couldn't let go. A very good friend of mine once told me "if they aren't in your life now, toss it out, they are your pass for a reason". ITS SO LEGIT! but, I'm a sucker who believes that even through the bad moments there were good moments and those good moments are the driving factors for me to not quit on "LOVE" to not quit on finding "MR. RIGHT".  I have always believed that things happens for a reason. I might not know why it happens but its crazy how a week ago I was going through my exbf of 8 plus yrs on and off and I wound up seeing him 2x in the same week and ended up having a wonderful conversation and in all honesty, you never know what might happen, just because they are your past now, they might come back into your present/future, and I don't mean that I'ma break up his current relationship so that I can be with him (DONT EVER BE A HOME WRECKER!) I wish him and his gf nothing but happiness and love =D . So another story of that comes from my sorority sister's current relationship, she introduced me to her bf and told me that they dated a couple years back and after they broke up, they dated other people and somehow the two singles found themselves falling for one another again and they make the damnn cutest and strongest couple I've seen. *YOU JUST NEVER KNOW WHAT MIGHT HAPPEN*

I'm not trying to tell you ladies out there to be like me and keep your all your exbf things because I know how much it hurts to sometimes sit there and just cry because the relationship no longer exists and all you have are materialistic things to hold onto. But DO what your comfortable with, trust me, I couldn't throw away anything for a very long time. It took hella baby steps and its a healing process that every girl have to go through. AND if you really want to forget about that person and you yourself can't let go, let your gf's do it for you, but there will be no turning back or regret or biting your gf cuz she did the job for you hahahaha and trust me there is nothing wrong with keeping somethings or not keeping any at all, as long as your strong and comfortable with your decision, because its all about you not him.

I guess I'll share another story hahahah my current relationship situation dilemma evolve from me going through my exbf's things, just like 3 letters that he wrote to me, I remember when we broke up I had given everything and I mean everything that belonged to him and it was so hard because I didn't want to give it back but I knew that if I didn't let him take it out of my hands I would of hurt even more and what's worst was that my bestiee had to take one of the biggest memories of him away from me and hid in under her bed because she didn't want me to have it so I would move on and stop crying over him (EVERY GIRL NEEDS A BESTIEE LIKE THAT! I OWE SO MUCH TO HER, THANKS G.LOU! <3) but I am guilty of not throwing away those 3 letters and I wound up reconnecting with him and I randomly decided to send him an image of the lil drawing he drew on the letter and to my suprise he actually remembers it, not like he remembered that he drew it for me, cuz I'm sure he drew that to all of his other exgf's hahahah (god that was so pathetic of me to share) but the fact that I still had it and I was silly to think that him and I would somehow wound up like my sorority sister and her bf, yeah better luck next time to me (pwnd) 

So yeah, as ladies, we all hurt and recover differently and at different pace. It really is up to you and what your comfort level of letting his things go. LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU DID WITH YOUR EXBF THINGS!?1??DID YOU KEEP IT?1?! WHAT DID YOU KEEP!?1? WHAT DID YOU THROW?!!1 SHARE WITH ME =] 

Angry Asian ExGF vol.2 "Don't make him your priority when you're just an option to him"

Mang, I haven't been on here in forever! Well not literally forever but it's been a few months now. LOL 

So today's topic that I wanna talk/vent about is about this quote that I read from my sisters fb status and it went something along the line of :

"don't make him your priority when you are just an option to him"

So I've been single for a few months now and I'm not going to lie, I had seen my exbf even after we broken up. I still catered to his every needs and demands. But yet he still managed to throw in the "your still a slut". LIKE FREALZ, how am I a slut when I'm making dinner with him and turned my cell off and give all my devoted attention to him. Anyways, so for the longest I hella struggled to find myself and find things to do on my own so that I wouldn't have to spend time with him, because I was so used to our routines and schedule when we were still dating. I know, I know, your probably thinking "why can't you just say no to him!" TRUST ME, saying "no" to someone you loved and cared about a lot is hard. As horrible as he treated me while we were dating and even after the breakup. I still allowed him to treat me like shit. Why? Because it's not that easy to let go and move on and act all cherry. Anyone who can do that, I give you hella kudos and wished I was as strong and courageous as you were. 

So I stuck around for a few more weeks with him and time after time he treats me even worst. He would always repeat back to me whenever I get upset and want to go home "your not my fucking gf, your just another slut that did me wrong and I never wanted to date you" and I would run out of his place as fast I could. I don't deserve it and I've never did anything wrong to him, I do everything in my way to please him still, even knowing that he's not my bf anymore. I still catered to him. I dropped everything and everyone for him, stupid I know. Eventually I realized he only wants me when he's lonely for the first 30 mins, then he would call either his sister or boys to come over. I hate being his 3rd wheel because I always get left in the corner by myself. The moment that made me realized that I can no longer cater to his every needs and demands was when he called me to yell at me for no apparent reason and then 5 minutes later he calls me back and apologized because he was lonely and wanted me over to keep him company. I was his last option because he went thru his entire contact list and I was the only one that he knew that will always pick up his call before the 3rd ring ended and would always call him back the moment I see that I missed his call and explain to him why I couldn't answer him and what I was doing at the moment. Even then, its not good enough for him. He would never wait til the 3rd ring for me, he would never call me back the moment he sees my missed call, he only calls me back when its convenient to him, which is a few days later.

I am done being HIS last option. I am done being ANY dude's last option. Ladies, please, please don't let any dude make you his last option, because if he so called "love you" or have the slightest crush on you he will do what it takes to reassure you that your his #1 and will not leave you hanging in the corner while he giggles and tickles his sister. LMAO sorry the tickle part with the sister was a joke. hahahaha but do you ladies understand? If you know you can offer a dude the world because your that bomb ass gf, let him treat you right first, give that nice guy a chance, let him chase you. Don't shut down the entire forest because one tree failed to grow prosperous in your garden. LMAO sorry that last metaphor was from my daddie hahaha. I wish the best of luck to the guys who are making their gf or future gf their #1 because trust me, she will make you her #1 as well. Every couple should be on the same page together, if not, then you guys have some reevaluation to do. 

k k until next time 

p.s. I'm trying not to be so angry in my blog HAHAHAHA because I know it scares some people when they read it HAHAHA 

Return of the Angry Asian ExGF vol.1 "she's my boy's ex"

 Yep I'm back and angrier then ever! I have so much to talk about and so much to say that I decided I am going to place all my anger into my blog post cause vlog is just too much, i would be bitching for hours. So I will begin with the most disgusting awful news that I found out recently and made this whole situation turn into one of those "WOW REALLY, YOU LYING FLYING SACK OF SHIT"

I am going to start off by saying BITCHES WILL BE BITCHES. There are good bitches and there are nasty bitches. Good bitches are the ones who defend themselves and her girls. Nasty bitches are the ones who are cheaters, gold diggers, and home wreckers/wannabe wreckers. I will start off with what my ex told me and how much he swears by "she's just a friend, she's my boy's ex, I would never fuck with her" BULLSHIT! That is the most down right biggest lie your man can ever tell you. He don't care if that's his boy's ex, he still wished he hit that and will continue to try to get it. WHY WOULD HE WANT TO DO THAT YOU MIGHT ASK? Because he can't help it that his boy got her first. So now he plays the "we're just friends card" BULLSHIT. If you guy's are just friends, she don't need to go and deliberately ask you to get a drink or go get sushi! That's why she have girlfriends to do that with, not a guy who has a gf. I understand that girls be thirsty for guys who are in relationships because they are single and lonely. She wants to be the alpha dog and believe that taking or changing another man's heart is a reward. WRONG BTICH. You are label and awarded the NASTY BITCH AWARD. Because you think that its right to go chill with him, knowing that he's your ex bf's boy and he has a gf. YOU REALLY THINK THAT'S GOING TO GET YOUR EX BF's attention! WRONG BITCH! HE DON'T GIVE A FLYING SACK OF SHIT ABOUT HIM OR YOU. So better luck next time. Now back to the ex bf.

He swears he never wants anything to do with her. THEN WHY ARE YOU MESSAGING HER TO MEET FOR DRINKS AND SUSHI AND WHERE THE FUCK IS MY INVITE? Oh wait, that's right. I'm not invited because they want to get liquored up and then go do the nasty and keep it as their little secrets because they don't want me to know that I'm going to be the stupid bitch who gets cheated on because I took his words of "we're just friends". Cheating unfaithful scums don't get anywhere. I'm glad you guy's found one another because you two make the perfect couple and belong to one another. You really think you guys will have that fairy tale ending and the perfect love story to tell everyone how you two got together. Let me break it down for you. 

girl: this is my new bf, he's my ex bf's boy, i know he has a gf but i dont care because im a dirty lil whore =D
boy: this is my boy's ex gf aka my new gf, i know i said we are just friends but i still want my boy's sloppy seconds  =D 
me: WOW YOU TWO ARE THE WORST FLYING SACK OF SHIT I'VE EVER ENCOUNTERED. I'M SO GLAD BOTH OF YOU GUYS GOT TREATED LIKE A DUMB ASS FROM YOUR PREVIOUS RELATIONSHIPS BECAUSE NOW YOU GUYS HAVE SOMETHING IN COMMON

It's funny that my ex always and I mean always be accusing me of cheating on him when I'm literally with him 24/7 of my days. I don't even have time to do my hair how would I have time to cheat? When in reality he's the one going behind my back meeting up with her at night to get drunk and eat sushi and deleting her msgs so no trace is left behind. Trust me, I can accept girls as a guys best friend but not when you don't even know her enough to give her that title and sure as hell didn't introduce her as your "best friend". So it only shows and proves that he wants to cheat and is plotting on doing so. He is such a hypocrite too. Preaching to me how he never cheated and knows how much it hurts to be cheated on, yet he likes using that word on me when I never ever gave him a reason to use it in the first place. He is guilty of cheating so that explains why he's always trying to make me feel like shit. 


lesson of the blog: don't trust your man with no female. especially females that were once his boy's ex, kicks, baby mama, etc. there is no bro code, because bros will fuck with each others hoes and sloppy seconds. and when he accuse you of cheating first, go check his fb, phone, and email and you will see that he is guilty of the crime therefore that's why he's trying to make it look like as if he's the victim of an unfaithful relationship, and don't even try to make friends with bitches you suspect of being home wreckers because odds are they are what they put themselves out there to be.and im not going to use any name here but if your feeling guilty after reading this then this msg is for you.

BABY NEPHEW NATHAN CHARLES MAC @ March 29,11

I've been meaning to post a blog about my new baby nephew that was born on Tuesday morning March 29. I wanted to write a post but I was so busy with work and school and going to the hospital the past couple of days to see how he was doing. The day that he was born, he came out having respiratory problems and had to be hooked up to the machines to help him breathe. It was so sad watching the little guy trying to be healthy. But today was an amazing day and all the prayers that I had requested from my friends really pulled through. My nephew got released today in the afternoon and I was so excited to leave class and go see him and hold him. He was supposedly considered a big baby weighing in at 8lbs but hes actually hella small when you hold him. I love the little man already, I really am going to do my best to be an awesome aunt and watch him grow up. As much as I do not agree or support 16 yr old teen pregancy, sometimes these things happens and that I am truely happy to say that I am glad it happened because I've blessed to be an aunt to such a cutie pie nephew and just thrilled to capture his life as much as I can before I start my own sometime near the future..LOL 

k k until next time 

Let's talk SMAC: vol.1 "he's not a good catch"

Before I throw out my "past" I figured I would write my thoughts down before I trash it and never see it again. I have mention about this before, that I would go through my past relationship experiences and lessons that I've learned. By no means am I a player or a slut, I just went through a lot to figure out what it means to be in a relationship with committment, why I need a bf, why I fell in love or was I even really in love, and the ups and downs that so many of us girls who sworn that they rather be at the highs then to be at the lows. But I am that girl whose been through my highs and lows and figured maybe somewhere someone is going through the same thing and might find this to be amusing or helpful or stupid, heh,  but nonetheless I will start with this ex kick because I have held onto this for years now and don't understand why I still have it when I will never date him nor will I ever speak to him. LOL

Mister BuFu kid:
I only got to know him through a friend. He was from bufu town, literally an hour away from the city. He came to the city on a cab, like legit, being at the age of 14 or 15 that time. A cab ride was like an entire month of allowance money. So to cut the story short, he came down to chill with my friend, but of course she was not interested and had to leave early because of an excuse she gave him and asked if I can keep him company. So as a good friend like I was, actually no, I was just bored and had nothing better to do. I took him under my wing and gave him a tour of the grand chinatown in a nutshell. LOL I guess after our little tour was when he started developing feelings for me. HOW QUICK WAS THAT? LOL but I guess when your young and its your first time in the city with a city girl everything is attractive. That was exactly it, I was merely an attraction because the bufu life was not doing it for him. We talked or whatever and then a week after he came down to the city again because he didn't have a car nor had any knowledge about the metra station. We hung out again because we consider ourselves as friends now I guess. He gave me a "gift" which was a note and a few pictures. I read it after we hung out and to my surprise, mister had one hell of a good handwriting. His pictures were funny, a picture of him, his bff and him, his older brother and him (they looked like twins), and a picture of his house. The picture of his house was the funniest to me. Because of what he wrote in the back. He basically assumed that I was a gold digger and that I was going to live with him in his bufu home in the bufu. WRONG! I am not about to give up my Chicago skyline for cornfields. So after reading the note about him pouring his feelings out, I told him it wouldn't work and we've not kept in touch nor seen each other for years. Until this past summer when I bumped into him at the club with his skinny stick of a gf and we just said hi and bye and never thought twice about each other.

Lesson Learned: Never take someone that your friend throws at you, its never a good catch. LOL. Do not let anyone take you as a gold digger, unless you are one then heh heh heh. And most definitely do not think that if your dating someone that the house is yours, because its his parents if he's still living with them. 

k k until next smac talking =P

Charlotte Russe Mini Haul

I am always shopping or window shopping in downtown because I work there and it is like a curse. I try so hard to not shop, but cmon now, its downtown! I have all the shopping stores a block away from work. So yes this is a mini haul because I did not buy a lot. Just accessories because they were buy 2 for $8 and I finally got the mini messenger bag/clutch that I've eyed since the winter time and it was on clearance! The color of the bag was more then perfect because it was meant for spring =D 

Coral messenger bag that turns into a clutch without the strapes $15

its a pear with bling bling!

my mama, my 2 bros and I. all chilling on a 2 finger ring =]

 k k until next time =D

Forever21 winter season ending sale haul

March is the time that stores are stocking in their spring/summer collection and slashing prices off on their winter season gears. That was what Forever21 had done in their 2nd week marking of the month to allow girls to stock up on winter things and see what's in store for the new collections. I really didn't get to buy much of their clothing's because all the small sizes were gone in a snap, I bought mostly accessories that were like $1.50 or under $5. So here goes the items I got to snag while it was still there, some items are still in stores from when I checked like 2 days ago. 

red tube top romper $9.90

blotting sheets in floral print $3.80 - gold cross wing ring $4.50 - silver diamond bow ring $4.50 - turquoise flower ring - $4.40 - silver diamond studded ring $4.50

black & pink hoop earrings $1.50 - gold leaf earrings $1.50 - silver diamond studded heart ring $1.50 - gold rose band ring $1.50 - gold unicorn necklace $1.50 (for my bff Karen who likes unicorn)

leopard?cheetah? kitty kat? LOL gold ring with emerald eyes $2.50! FAVE RING at the moment.

lower eye lashes $2.80 *these are plastic so be very careful when apply it, I cut them up individually and then apply it underneath*

scoop neck sweater with color diamonds and pearls to the left and a BIG BOW to the right! $5.99 and I love it!

taupe floral front neck shirt $5.99

I got these earrings because they remind of the ones Evelyn Lozada from Basketball wives had. The camera necklace was also another fave or mine. I have a collection of camera cutouts from magazine that I collect.

silver butterfly dangly earrings $3.80

gold.black.and diamond studded black camera necklace $3.80

k k until next time =D